| Monday, May 4th, 2009 |
| 9:33 pm |
i know i suck at keeping up with this!
i havent been on here in a million years and every time i get on i think to myself i will keep up with it since i dont talk to people too much it will at least keep me up to date with whats going on in everyones lives.. because i do care. well then life carries me away and days turn into months and i dont have the time to go back and read everything from the past months i missed... this time tho from here on out i am going to keep up. i basically hibernated all winter long.. i didnt hang out with anyone.. just worked went home and hung with my kid and watched movies and tried to stay warm. now thats its warming up i feel like i havent done anything in ages and im wasting my life away ive been going out more and its pretty much been by myself.. which sux. i hate going out by myself. i have to get loaded right away because i get social anxiety when im around a bunch of people i dont know.. then i stand there by myself and the only people that talk to me are jock jagoffs that wouldnt give me the time of day normally but when they are drunk they all secretly want to fuck some weird girl..so i get schmooozed on by some total dickhead no brain. it sux i wish i had more friends that liked to do the things i do. i have friends but they are just into punk and dont want to go to dance clubs and the such like i like to do. there are soo many places i want to go to but have no money ever.... i work to spend it the day i get it on my stacks and stacks of bills that are due. my kid as she gets older wants and needs more things.. next up i need to buy her a dress for a formal dance for the 8th graders.. this fall is high school for her! good grief i am old. speaking of old... my 20 year high school reunion is late july. i am planning on going if i can save up for it. i had no desire to see anyone... then the handful of friends i had in school started getting in touch one by one and i started getting all fucking nostalgic and now i am dying to see them!! i want all of us to meet up before hand go get loaded and walk in all together.. all the weirdos at once and shock the shit outta everyone!! that would be soo rad! here i am 37 and i still havent grown up! :) weird as ever. ha anyway enough rambling. if anyone is even reading this.. i am taking applications for a boyfriend.. i sometimes like being single.. but sometimes it totally sux too! i feel like i have been single long enough. only total weirdo wingnuts end up hitting on me tho. i get ghetto gangstas and like weird slipknot kinda dudes. people i really have nothing at all in common with. pittsburgh was voted one of the worst cities in the u.s. to live in if you are single. greeeatt~ Current Mood:  blah |
| Tuesday, April 15th, 2008 |
| 10:57 am |
84 WEEKS AGO!!!
holy hell.. thats apparently the last time i posted something. im suprised everyone hasnt deleted me off of their friends list by now. i used to write so regularily and then just stopped. i kinda have been missing having a place to write the random mundane points of my life. esp. not having someone in my life to talk to anymore, well not like it used to be at least. i was looking at my friends list and there are so many rad people on there that i miss and i am horrible at keeping in touch. so i plan on posting more often and trying to catch up on what everyone else has been up to! lots of crap drama in my life lately with work and band and relationship stuff. i'll expand on it more later. i dont want my first post back to be all negative :/ heres a few pics in the mean time. with my last band on tour. this was detroit  ran into jules from kmfdm at a bar in seattle  did i ever mention i am afraid of heights and falling? go ahead laugh away  adam me and todd. we are yo gangsta n shit bra  selling behind enemy lines merch in cali  more later xox |
| Thursday, August 31st, 2006 |
| 3:15 pm |
ooh its been to long!
i sit here really drugged up and feeling very zombie-esque at the moment i have a million things to do and no energy to do them. yesterday i was out mowing the lawn and all of a sudden i feel a pain in my leg i look down and i thought i had stepped through a sticker bush and had sticker stuck all over my leg.. i bent down to pick it off and saw they were moving and i had wasps all over me.. at least 60 of them covering me! i freaked out and ran and my shoe fell off and i tripped.. i am sure if someone was watching me they wouldve laughed their asses off .. i know i looked like a lunatic!!! i ran to the side of the house cause they were coming after me.... i tried to shoe them off of me and as soon as they got shoed off the came back on me like a magnet! and were stinging me over and over again. it was seriously horror movie kind of shit.. i started hyperventilating and my arms went numb... i started squashing them with my hands cause its the only way they would die and stop attacking me...i lifted up my sleeve and a couple crawled out.. i freaked out again and took my shirt off....it was insane! i went insane for a bit there! i was so freaked out i know people have died from being stung so many times before.. i called dave at work hysterical... he came and got me from work and took me to the ER. they gave me a bunch of shots and a bunch of medicine i need to take over the week. all of it makes me sooo out of it and tired.. i have been doing nothing for 2 days now.. i can barely drag my ass out of bed... and tommorow i have to work 16 hours! i have no idea how i am going to deal with it but i need money cause i am one broke ass bitch! :( life is a drag sometimes. i havent been on here in forever and i miss knowing what everyone is up to.. i need to catch up til next time kisses |
| Wednesday, June 28th, 2006 |
| 2:05 pm |
7 Songs!! Been tagged by redevilangelSo list seven songs you are into right now. No matter what the genre,whether they have words, or even if they're not any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying now. Post these instructions in your livejournal along with your 7 songs. Then tag 7 other people to see what they're listening to. ok i made myself a 80's compilation to listen to in my car.. i have been playing the shit out of it since i made it a month ago so some of these are just plain cheezy but i love them!!! 1. the metro by berlin 2. johnny come home by the fine young cannibals 3. rock it ms.usa by sigue sigue sputnik 4. all the songs off of the new behind enemy lines lp (they just recorded and are mixing it and dave has been listening to it constantly to figure out what else needs to be worked on) 5. the first 2 sinead o connor lp's sooo good! 6. anarchy by kmfdm 7. media person by rudimentary peni <3 deathrockluvearline000lollirazoro0olellyo0ostich_insidesyndicalistxwasted_youthxyou are tagged next!!!! |
| Friday, June 16th, 2006 |
| 9:59 am |
long time coming!
i have not been on here in ages!! so much has been happening! lots of bands coming through here and staying with us. between my band, shows , visitors, my 3 jobs, sierras after school activities every day of the week FUCK man things have been insane!!! my bestest of friends from florida jason and julie are coming up here to visit next week!! i cant wait to see them again! tonight i work 2 jobs. get no sleep .. go to my day job tommorow morning ..then after work dave and i are going to go see margaret cho!!! ooohhh i cant wait i love her to death!!!! she is the shit! then after that we are going straight to the airport to pick up jello. he is doing a spoken word in town and is staying with us. that should be so much fun! he is such a cool fucking guy! he is going to stay for about 3 days. it is nonstop visitors!! when jason and julie leave to go back to tampa they are going to take sierra with them for the summer! its going to be weird with her gone!! i will miss her like crazy! i miss my denver friends very much. i am hoping to come out again later this year.. we will see how money is. aaron doctor.. you and i need to hang out!! i am sick of saying that. we are thinking of having a party next sunday! i will let you know. i want you to come!!!! ok well i hope everyone is doing well!!! i will try to stay ontop of things and update more often! xxxooo |
| Thursday, March 2nd, 2006 |
| 7:30 pm |
Denver people!!
hey i am going to be back in town from april 12-18th! i hope to catch up with you all, drop me your numbers so i can give you a ring! im excited! :) let me know what clubs and what nights are good nowadays and also if there are any shows while im around drop me a line!! |
| Thursday, January 19th, 2006 |
| 3:28 pm |
i am fucking fiending to go out dancing!!! it has been ages since i have... ive gone to the club.. but i rarely hear anything i like so i just sit and get drunk. i need to dance to some good music before i lose my head!! FOR FUCKING REAL Current Mood:  restless |
| Tuesday, December 27th, 2005 |
| 9:12 am |
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| Monday, December 26th, 2005 |
| 6:47 pm |
its been a while!
well... my new band is doing well except that our bassist jill is leaving us. so we need to find a new bassist.. we know a guy that is interested. so i hope that works out. bret our guitarist is in tampa visiting family.. he gets back the day before our last show with jill. i hope it goes well since we havent practiced in almost a month!!! been to a couple weddings in the last month. everyone i know is either getting married or having kids it seems!!?? whats going on?? our friend sean who was in the "bad genes" wedding was a couple weeks ago. afterwards we talked all the guys into playing since they were all there! man that made my day! they rule.. they havent practiced or played together in 7 years and sounded like they were just rocking out yesterday. sooo good! were gonna go back to denver in a month or two to visit my mom.. i hope i can see as many of you denver peeps as possible! i will write more details when i have them! work is crazy. i fucking hate holiday shoppers.. i feel like killing them all!!! i cant wait til it gets back to normal! im trying to get the shirt printing going more...i want to get that kickin so i can quit the bar! i swear i feel like shit the next two days after i work there from the lack of ventilation and how small it is.. i smell like i rolled around in an ashtray when i come home... that place is killing me i love working with mary.... but i gotta get outta there,,, i just need to start making more money then i will!!! BEL is practicing right now in the basement and i cant quite concentrate .. i might get back to this later. imperial leather show is tommorow!! it is going to be so awesome!! i like them a lot! they are going to stay here.. i should probably go clean the house up a bit til next time... xo Current Mood:  sleepyCurrent Music: behind enemy lines |
| Tuesday, November 15th, 2005 |
| 5:09 pm |
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| Thursday, October 6th, 2005 |
| 1:03 pm |
new business
i put up a myspace profile for the shirts i have been printing until i can find someone with web design expertise that can help me put these up go check them out and add my new profile for them as well. thanks!!! :) INFECTED PRESS |
| Friday, September 2nd, 2005 |
| 2:03 pm |
today i plan on doing nothing!!
it seems i have been running ragged lately with no time for myself... so today is my birthday and i plan on just relaxing at least for the first half of the day.. tonight i plan on drinking a bunch of wine dave brought back from europe with him and probably going to see the last dance play tonight. i like them a lot. i took sierra to a punk show she wanted to go to last night since we got free tickets... it was sooo packed and hot it wasnt very enjoyable. i hate when other random sweaty people rub against me at a show.. then i get real paranoid about people running into her so i tend to be focused more on her than anything esp. when its that packed!! and by the way ive been reading everyones journals.. i just havent had time to respond.. sorry everyone. i'll get back on some sort of a normal schedule soon though!! til then xox |
| Thursday, July 28th, 2005 |
| 6:49 pm |
woop there it is
hey everyone.. things are so hectic since sierra got home.. lots of catching up to do on everything!!! tons of emails to write.. lots of work aroudn the house to do. lots of shirt printing stacked up and ready to be printed any day now.. i got a part time job.. so now i work there and at the eagle bartending and printing shirts!!! too much to do.. not enough hours in the day to do them all!! well my best pals from florida jason and julie came for a visit and their daughters and sierra have grown up together since sierra was about 3. so almost 8 years now they have been friends. they are all like sisters. they askerd if they could take sierra home with them to florida .. so sierra is gone for almost a month!!! i have to go get her in a few weeks. so florida people i will be in town aug. 20-23!!! i want to hang out!!!! get in touch!!! the mansfields are coming to town next friday!! ugh.. i have to work at the bar!! i hate when bands i want to see come to town when i have to work!! suck suck suck. i miss my denver peeps!!! i hope everyone is good. im just beat. my pals from denver haroldo and leto are coming to town this sunday with their band and with skrack from germany and they are staying with us... i cannot wait!! drunken debauchery will begin! yay!!!! |
| Sunday, July 10th, 2005 |
| 4:11 pm |
i have not been online here in a couple weeks. just an update i went to minneapolis for clitfest and the punk picnic and i had a much needed good time and break from daily life! it was awesome. pics to come later from all that goodness.. when i got back though my daughter was so sick i took her to the hospital and she has viral meningitis! she had to get a spinal tap. it was the worst thing i have ever had to see done to her. it was horrible! she is in constant pain and has insane headaches that never go away! i hope this gets out of her system very soon this is draining me mentally and physically. must get back to the hospital..... :( |
| Friday, June 24th, 2005 |
| 10:49 am |
R.I.P.
people in tampa read this... i found this out this morning repost from hubcap mike "Tommy and Wendy were stabbed last night at the C.O.C. show, Wendy survived , Tommy didnt. They have not caught the killer. Please assist Wendy and her family any way we can." this is sad beyond words. they were 2 of the nicest people. i knew tommy much longer and better than i did wendy... it just makes me so sad to think he is gone forever.  |
| Thursday, June 9th, 2005 |
| 2:00 pm |
lollirazor tagged me..
List five songs that you are currently digging ... it doesn't matter what genre they are from, whether they have words or even if they're any good but they must be songs you're really enjoying right now. Post these instructions, the artist and the song in your blog along with your five songs. Then tag five other people to see what they're listening to. bread and water- nakedness as insult? mdfmk- missing time harum scarum- corporate pennies behind enemy lines- global cannibal (made me miss dave a little less while he was on tour!) rudimentary peni- cosmetic plague all old stuff... just stuff i have been listening to a lot of lately! sorry i am not going to get all fancy and post links to these peoples names.. i dont know how!!! so here you five are tagged now suckas!!!! xwasted_youthx syndicalist nephilium kotas_heaven (you aint nothin but a hound dog's gotta be on that list!! ;) ) decrepitmasses |
| Tuesday, May 31st, 2005 |
| 9:20 pm |
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| Sunday, May 29th, 2005 |
| 6:48 pm |
Your Birthdate: September 2 |
Your birth on the 2nd day of the month adds a degree of emotion, sensitivity, and intuition to your life.
The 2 is a very social number allowing you to make friends easily and quickly.
Yet you are apt to have a rather nervous air in the company of a large group.
You have a warmhearted nature and emotional understanding that constantly seeks affection.
You are more prone than most to become depressed and moody, as emotions can turn inward and cause anxiety and mental turmoil.
It can be hard for you to bounce back to reality when depression sets in. |
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| Tuesday, May 24th, 2005 |
| 10:56 pm |
YESSSS i went to see avskum tonight. i wasnt sure if i would make it cause i had to work at the tattoo shop til 8 pm and it started at 7!!! ahhh oh fuck it was soooo good! i love those guys!!! the singer makes the BEST faces i have EVER seen! he does these killer jumps to.. i was just smiling the whole time. he made me laugh so much. those jumps are so half assed and going nowhere in the air. looks like what they would look like if i tried to do one! heh!! i love that shit... killer show. i am so glad i went! i needed a night out anyway. i also got a flyer at the show for some other punk show going on next friday and so i was like oh bummer i am working at the bar.. then i look and at the bottom it says after party is at the eagle!! where i work!! yesss.. everyone come and give me killer tips!! i cant wait! i miss dave to fucking much! he has been writing me everyday and he called yesterday from germany.. he rules! i cant wait til hes back! the band i have going just needs a bassist then we will be rockin as a whole band. we have only had four practices nad already have 4 songs. fun stuff! anyway im tired. g'nite |
| Wednesday, May 18th, 2005 |
| 4:48 pm |
my guy is on his way to germany right now! :( this 3 weeks is going to SUCK!!!! now time for a stupid meme thingy.... who is that person i am dating??? |
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